Class was really wack last night. Not because of the subject matter, the professor or anything like it. It was the class activity. We were assigned to work in groups of four. I understand that this is the age of collaboration, and teamwork makes dream work and all that jibba jabba but more often than not working in groups really drainnnnnnnnsssssssss ME! I've just go to get this out. So I do beg your pardon. I'm not intentionally trying to offend or come off as a snob but I'm the type of student that just likes to get a task done. Sometimes discussion and all the hemming and hawing of working in small groups really really really and truly gets on my very last nerve.
I've had some terrible group experiences.. I've been hung out to dry and left to do the bulk of the work myself. I've been bored to tears and I've even been bossed around. *clutches pearls* Additionally, I got a lot going on and group work usually requires additional out of class meetings and correspondence that further complicate my life. In other words I'd much prefer to be missed by the whole enterprise. I don't want to play. I understand that collaboration and interdisciplinarity are major tenets of academic life so this is not something that I'll be able to escape/avoid. I understand that ultimately I'll have to get over myself. But right now I'd rather just complain. Alas another area requiring extensive growth and development. I'm a scholar in process try your best not to judge. I do understand that it's not always this bad. I have had some positive group work experiences in my academic and professional life but yesterday's group had my jaws super tight. Have you ever been sitting in a place around some people and all you wanted to do was scream "GET FROM ROUND ME!"from the very depths of your soul??? Yea.. that's where I was yesterday. *shrugs*
Maybe it was just a particular group member, or maybe it was just me. Either way my attitude was horrible and I really need to work on that. It'd been a super long day, I didn't really understand the assignment and one of my group members irked me till no end. You know the kinda of irk that gets your back teeth grinding.. Yea.. there! And what's really weird about ole girl is that she just "loves" me. Always speaking and starting up conversation. She comes to class late and sits near me every session. Even if there are no other available seats Yesterday she made herself a seat. Pulled her bad roots and cowboy boots right up to the front of my desk and made a spot!! GIRL, MOVE!!! I'm so sincere. The desks were arranged in a circle and she's the only somebody that elected to sit INSIDE. Ummmmm ma'am, GET FROM ROUND ME! Maybe it WAS just her. Or just me, she was just being herself and frankly she has that right. It is very possible that I drain another one of my classmates just as HARD as she drains me. Ah well...
Anyway, the moral of the story is I like to get it done and get it done quickly. And groups tend to the make projects and assignments a lot longer and more complicated than they need to be. Hopefully I'll learn to embrace the process and reap the benefits of working collaboratively with my classmates and colleagues. *insert eye roll here* Again I thank you for reading yet another one of my tantrums.